Mistrust and doubtfulness...

Why is it that at times, whatever we do or say is perceived in an absolutely wrong manner....everytime! Eveything that we do and say is doubted? As much as we try to prove otherwise, try and do it right...it is never right !!!

Sometimes in life, when we want something real bad...because it becomes precious and important to us more than anything else in the world, even though it could be the most futile and worthless thing for the world, do we go all way...degrade ourself to the hilt, lose on all our self respect to attain it?

And would it be worse if instead of something it was someone ?

Things dont have a mind or a heart....but people do! So why does suddenly everything change and they refuse to look at it from our point of view?

Is "understanding" a too complicated quality to ask for in any form of relationship?

If we were to just have a bad day, bad week, bad month for too many reasons and circumstances, do we lose the right to feel the way we do? Do we always have to put up a brave front with a smiling face, saying that I am all happy and gay !!??

Is it so selfish to say that ... I am angry...I am upset...I am miserable....and I just want you to love me, understand my turmoil and make me feel alright...make me feel that life is worth living because you are there next to me.....