I cannot fathom how one day one is on top of the world, and in a moment everything comes crashing down! We have head stories of it, seen it in movies, read about it in papers but somehow never braced ourselves for it!
And what's so stupefying is the fact that I am responsible for all of it .. I .. ME .. MYSELF! And now I wonder how could I be such a fool ! How could I have not seen it coming? I cant even share it with anyone anymore because now when I do, people just stare at me with a look that says ... SERIOUSLY?
What was my mistake? I trusted people! I trusted their words! And let my guards down.... again! After my last struggle with faith in people, I had managed to walk back into the world, let myself get flown with the wind and let time take its course. What I had not counted for was the chance of having being knocked down again if I let my guards down. But I did ... and now I have no one or nothing to blame it on!
I am so tired of it all now! I just wish there was a way to end it all! At least I would not have to go through it so many times ! I just cant do it anymore!
