Nearly a year later since I started this blog, I feel so glad that I did ! Had it not been for Zaf...I would not have capured all my emotions of the past year ! This has been a medium for me to communicate with myself and this has been the outlet for all my pent up emotions. I have actually been able to talk my heart out here, which even if I tried, no one would understand !
But after all this time, I still don't see anything that has changed! My life is still stuck in the doldrums where i was! Yes, I definitely do have much more clarity in what I WANT now but not on HOW ! Since the day I had decided to move out, I have been looking for opportunities all around that would help me establish my most wanted career path and give me a chance to rebuild my life the way I want to....but I guess fate or destiny has other plans in store for me!
I am tired of waiting for the God's plans to unfold! I still wonder what is His best laid plans are....
Wonder if all this fight for self has been futile...maybe we just cant live our life the way we want to...maybe we are just not meant to pursue what our hearts yearn for....
If this is so....then do i give up now and go back to being what i had become?
